Sometimes, in our relentless efforts to find the person we love we fail to recognize and appreciate the people who love us. We miss out on so many beautiful things and simply because we allow ourselves to be enslaved by our own selfish concerns.

Go for the man of deeds and not for the man of words for you will find rewarding happiness not with the man you love but the man who loves you more. The best lovers are those who are capable of loving from a distance, far enough to allow the other person to grow, but never too far to feel the love deep within your being.

To let go of someone doesn't mean you have to stop loving, it only means that you allow that person to find his own HAPPINESS without expecting him to come back. Letting go is not just setting the other person free, but it is also setting yourself free from all fears, bitterness, hatred, and anger that you keep in your heart.

Do not let the bitterness rare away your strength and weaken your faith, and never allow pain to. Dishearten you, but rather let you grow with wisdom in bearing it. You may have found peace in just loving someone from a distance not expecting anything in return. But be careful, for this can sustain life but can never give enough room for us to grow.

We can all survive with just beautiful memories of the past but real peace and happiness come only with open acceptance of what reality is today.

There comes a time in our lives when we chance upon someone so nice and we just find ourselves getting so intensely attracted to that person. This feeling soon become a part of our everyday lives and eventually consumes our thoughts and actions. The sad part of it is when we begin to realize that this person feels nothing more for us
than just friendship, or the feelings he might have for you is just too far from how you love him. We start our desperate attempt to get noticed  and be closer but in the end our efforts are still unrewarded and we end up being sorry for ourselves.

You don't have to be bitter on love. What you need to learn is how to accept the verdict of reality without being bitter or sorry for yourself Believe me, you would be better off giving that dedication and love to someone more deserving.

Don't let your heart run your life, be sensible and let your mind speak for itself. Listen not only to your feelings but to reason as well.

Always remember that if you lose someone today, it means that someone better is coming tomorrow: If you lose love that doesn't mean that you failed in love. Cry, if you have to, but make it sure that  the tears wash away the hurt and the bitterness that the past has left with you. Let go of yesterday and love will find its way back to you. And when it does, pray that it may be the love that will stay and last a lifetime.

When you lose someone and you think you were the one who loved most, between the two of you... He lost more. For someday you can love someone the way that you loved him...But he will never be loved again the way that you did.

I’ve been attending this training called the 7 Habits for Highly Effective People by Stephen Covey. I’ve heard about the book, read some values coming from the book, I’ve send the book in the bookstore and almost tempted to buy the book. I never dreamed that I could attend the training workshop itself. So, far I am learning about how I should have this positive outlook in life. Not to really boast or anything, but I have already practiced some of the habits. Habit 1: Be Proactive, has been a big factor in my reacting with the external environment around me. Habit 1: teaches us to control/contain our emotions rather than act impulsively to the physical stimuli that are surrounding us.  People think that I am a control freak but basically, I just think and check my emotions before reacting to some things that are thrown to me. I even go as far as evaluating if it’s even worth to react.  

Habit #2: Begin with the End Mean, there are citations that I have practiced this habit, but this instances are but short term goals… I haven’t delved deeper to having a long term goal with regards to my career. Honestly, I don’t know what will happen to me in the next two years… if I will still be sitting on this chair waiting for a call to be answered. I haven’t even thought of it, two years ago when I started this job. One thing is for sure, I don’t have life long career as a call center agent. You know what I really wanted to do is to have a child of my own but before I get to that… I want to go out of the country and work, to be able to help in my families finances at the same time I want to be an independent person as well, I also want to be a wife, I want to explore my spiritual side. Sometimes, I feel that there is so much to dream but less action are taken to reach that dream... then you find yourself stuck in the same chair as you were in the previous year. Such a depressing thought!!! Really, I should start thinking of my End Mean…what is really my goal in life? What do I really want to do in the next 3-4 years? I need to think this over and when I have the answers, I will start to work on it. There was an activity on this habit that allows you to list the 30 things that you prioritize in your life to be motivated to live. The 30 things were then narrowed down to 5, the five that were left for me is Love, Family, God, Money and Child, from this 5 list we were then asked to write our Personal Mission Statement, based on your values. To be frank about, it I was having a difficult time writing my own Personal Mission it’s that hard to be committed and be guided by your personal mission in all the things that you do and the choices that you make. I will have to rewrite my Personal Mission Statement.

To be continued…

Whew! It's the "ber" season... 85 days to go and its christmas time.

Something to cling on October.

It's Octoberfest... Honestly, I haven't been in any octoberfeast event but all that is going to change because I will make sure that I would be able to attend to one. Just for the fun of it!

It's my mom's bday on October 25th... I hope I can give her the best gift in the world.

October means... I will be in the morning shift. Finally, thank GOD I have survived those 4 grueling months of being in the night shift.

October 8th will be Nina's, Nyoy and Paolo Santos concerts in waterfront. We have already reserved some tickets and I'm crossing my fingers that my mind would not change in watching the concert. I can be so fickle-minded.

This month could mean a goodbye to one of my closest friend in project pink. Whatever your decision is, I'll back you up.

My good friend Sashimi, is finally back in the team. Yehey! My movie kaberks will be complete once again.

This marks the month of my pursuance to save money. I'll definitely start saving up! On this note, I plan to stay indoors rather than going out.

My plans of buying a web cam will definitely be pushed through ... I always felt that I don't need to have a web cam but lately, I feel that its about time to buy one so, I can see my friends on a more personal level.

I'm plannin' to have a vacation this month to Bohol... I’m definitely going there this time... And leave the traces of memories the place has haunted me.

This will be a month of waiting for the movie Harry Potter: Goblet of Fire. I also need to finish the last two books the Order of the Phoenix and the Half-Blood Prince.

Before, I forget this month… I’ll be faithful in going to the gym. I need to lose weight… 4 months in the night shift has its price.

All this are enough reasons for me to welcome October with a big bang!!!

As of the moment, it's the first of the month and I am stuck in the office, taking calls and I am pretty sure that there will be queue's later on, I wouldn't even have the time to catch my breath... my mouth will be bubbling with words. That's 13 hours of nonstop talking; my friends and I plan to watch movies after the shift! Could I survive these ordeals? Oh I hope I would have the energy to watch a movie.  What a way to start the month! ^_^

Just something i got from the mail today.... I think most of it represents me, but a lot also misrepresents my own personality... to all Saguittarius woman out there... We ROCK!

A tall slim and graceful woman who walked proudly like she is walking in a  beauty pageant competition. If she slips or nearly falls, she will nicely covered it up and continue with her graceful and impressive walking step. She knows how to use make up to enhance her beauty. She looks at the world positively, so her face always seem so happy. She will not get up set easily.
 

Self confident woman who belief in her own style. She will not follow fashion, but standing in between simplicity and too modern. She is a very  open person, sometimes can be too blunt. She is an honest person and never try to cause troubles for any one.
 
She likes to say something that you do not want to hear and yet she can say something so pleasing at the same time. Example she may say "I wish you could make more money, so you could afford better cloth, but anyway it is better this way. If you make more money you could be thinking of money too much and become greedy". She can say such thing and make you wonder if you should get up set or love her more.
 
She is also a free spirit and does not like to stay home. She likes to be protected, but not to give her orders. She has no respect to a weak man. If she try to over powered you, then you have to calm her down and try to control her to be in a limit by doing the same thing too. She will listen if she respect you. She likes to be herself and like her guy to be himself.
 
She is a no nonsense woman, so you will not hear she says " Guess what I will do next", or "Guess what I am thinking" because she always say what she is thinking out loud like a guy. If you do not understand her in this matter, you could easily break up with her. She sees problems in her love life as another funny story.
 
She is clumsy and it is in her nature. You may think it is cute, but for some neat guys this could be so unbearable. She is very friendly, so she can easily turn her enemy to be her friends. She has good taste in fine cloths, good food, first class and first services. Even a poor woman in this Zodiac will struggle to afford such good taste. She could spent lots of money as if she can not understand how difficult it is to make money. If you think of let her borrow money, think again.
 
She is a paranoid. If she thinks you like her, she may already think about getting marry and lost her freedom and so on and on. A jolly woman who loves sports. She is an ordinary woman who could dress like a tomboy. She has more guy friends and sometimes could act like one of a guy. She does not care about rumors, so she can get home very late and couldn't careless what her neighbor will gossip about her. She thinks either good or bad, you will know it yourself, so you should not bother what people think.
 
Her wit and innocent look are her charms. She is often hurts from love, but never afraid to look for a new one as if she is singing "Do that to me one more time". She likes going straight and being straight forward. She will not go around to get what she wants, or beat around the bush just to say something. If you meet her and tell her

straight what you think, she will admire you.

This is an SMS interaction from one of my friend and whoever the other person she is arguing with. Let me tell you a little background about my friend, she is very prim and proper, she would never stoop down at this person’s level had she not subscribed to the SMS Unlimited of Globe.  I find this conversation really funny… it’s like a childish battle. Let’s just name my friend IVY and John Doe for whoever this person is.

John Doe: Pwede ba malaman asl mo?

Ivy: Cno po ba 2?

John Doe: Eh kaw ang una kong tinanong eh. Sagutin mo muna tanong ko tapos ikaw naman ang magtanong sakin.

Ivy: Xcuse me but u txted 1st. And I don't normally text 2 strangers. You've had enough of my time. Thanks but no thanks. (thinking he's a prankster)

John Doe: Ay ang taray! Bakla ka no! Eh bakit ganyan ka rin sa tita ko? Ang taray mo bakla ka! Di kita kailangan.

Ivy: 1st of all, you're talking to a FEMALE. 2nd of all, how did you get my #?! You're pathetic! Maybe you're gay, you don't have anyone else to text that's why you're picking on my #. I DON'T KNOW YOU, so stop BUGGING ME!

John Doe: Eh bastos ka sa tita ko. Text ka na text tapos gusto mo ikaw lang ang pinagbibigyan. People like you are worthless trash so stop bugging my aunt.

Ivy: Do I know you?? And do I know your aunt? I'm not texting to anyone who is unworthy of my texts. You've got the wrong lady, wrong # AND stop using the words I'm using!!

John Doe: She is too good for you.

Ivy: And who are you, Ms. prissy? Who IS your aunt ba ha? I don't know you people! HOW'D YOU GET MY #??!!!

John Doe: Don't fret spinster, I shant be using  whatever you uttered. and this banter won't last long. Now go get your dictionary to translate my English. (parang kinuha sa novel,noh?)

Ivy: Are you threatening me? whoever you are, you've wasted enough of my time. Stop this shit, and go make someone else's life miserable. I don't know you, neither your aunt. As I've said YOU'VE GOT THE WRONG GURL! GOODBYE! FOREVER!!!!

John Doe: Kaya wag kang magyabang na marunong kang mag-english dahil marunong din ako. Ikaw, wala ka lang pinag-aralan, wala kang breeding sa pinapakita mo.

My Aunt and I are far superior than you!!! Now kiss my ass goodbye! Hahaha!

Ivy: You know what, before you text, make sure you've dialled the right #. It sure would've saved a lot of time and frustrations from both of us. hey, I didn't comment on your English at all. you're the one who's full  of shit texting someone you don't know. Spare me your dilemma with your aunt. Coz again and again, I DON'T KNOW BOTH OF YOU! DO YOU HAVE ANY IDEA WHO YOU'RE TEXTING WITH? I'm living a decent life here before you started texting me tonight. For all I know you're from up north of the country and you've messed up with the wrong #!

In love, we win very rarely, but when love is true, even if you lose, you still win just for having the tingle of loving someone more than you love yourself.  There comes a time when we stop loving someone, not because that person has stopped loving us but because we have found out that, they'd be happier if we let go.

Why do we close our eyes when we sleep? When we cry? When we imagine? When we kiss?

This is because THE MOST BEAUTIFUL THINGS IN THE WORLD ARE UNSEEN.

There are things that we never want to let go of, people we never want to leave behind, but keep in mind that letting go isn't the end of the world. It's the beginning of a new life. Happiness lies for those who cry those who hurt, those who have searched and those who have tried. For only they can appreciate the importance of the people who have touched our lives.

A great love? It's when you shed tears and still you care for them, it's when they ignore you and still you long for them. It's when they begin to love another and yet you smile and say, "I'm happy for you." If love fails, set yourself free, let your heart spread its wings and fly again. Remember you may find love and lose it, but when love dies, you never have to die with it.

The strongest people are not those who always win but those who stand back up when they fall. Somehow, along the course of life, you learn about yourself and realize that there should never be regrets, only a lifelong appreciation of the choices you've made.

Loving is not how you forget but how you forgive, not how you listen but how you understand, not what you see but how you feel, and not how you let go but how you hold on.

It's more dangerous to weep inwardly rather than outwardly. Outward tears can be wiped away while secret tears scar forever.

It's best to wait for the one you want than settle for one that's available. It's best to wait for the right one because life is too short to waste on just someone .

Banilad Town Center is definitely the new place in town. If you want to relax on a Saturday night, this place offers a lot of amenities. Joanna, Love, Ariel and I hanged out in Formo last Saturday, it was a cool place, nice ambience and the people are what you call middle class people. The crowd is really good and it made me think of Makati, all the guys and gals are dressed like young professionals. If you want to eat pizza there is yellow cab with there 18 inch pizza… I am not a pizza lover but they have one of the best pizza ever!!!! Back to Formo,  I ordered a drink named “absinthe”, It was my first time to order that drink I was just curious because of the movie Moulin Rouge…(babaw noh?!?!?). Gosh! I couldn’t finish the drink it tastes horrible… I mean really I will settle for a margarita or tequila but not that. I made Ariel drink the rest of it. After Formo, we went straight to POD5 to do sing some karaoke songs. Before we left Formo, Tweetie De Leon the model was their waiting on the sideline so take can take over our table. She was really pretty. POD5 had a nice ambiance too, and we literally sang our hearts out. After an hour, we went back to Formo and talked some more.  Ariel was having some stomach problems, it was around 1am then and Joanna and Ariel had to beg off to go home. That left me and Love, thinking of where we are headed. For us, who are nocturnal beings it was too early to go home so we had Plan B. We were going to join Maui and their team in their karaoke session in capitol. The only thing is we don’t know where the place is… and Maui’s phone had an empty battery because we kept calling her cellphone. We had to find this place called Margie near capitol, finally, we found a place called Margie it was a KTV bar and on the door there was a sign “Wanted GRO” we were like what is this place? Before we went out we had to ask who was inside and the girls who were hanging outside the KTV bar confirmed that Maui and the rest of the gang were inside having the time of their life. It was indeed a KTV bar, and if you think there are GRO’s … the fact is we were the only customers and the Videoke was all for us. They had a concert in the bar because we were the only customers. It was really fun; we just hanged out there for a couple of hours and then the group split up and went home at around 3:30am. Before, I ended my day… I went to jollibee to eat French fries and from their I went straight home. All in all, it was a great way of spending my saturday night.