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Books(from psychology books to romantic novels to suspense thiller to Books about life in general), watch movies(romantic-comedy), get a sense of solitude of playing the piano, can listen to music the whole day, super crazy about M.Y.M.P's song, appreciates 80's and 90's songs i just love sentimental songs, for a diversity likes linkin park's songs, Lifehouse and Maroon 5, loves to blog once in a while, flowers, candles, collects CD's but sometimes listening to none, cellphones, PC, likes to wear white and black shirts, likes to watch JOROX shows, tweety bird, Pink, i would love travel to ITALY and FRANCE, likes to comb my hair, crazy about forums, likes the sunrise and sunsets, wants to plant trees, like to walks barefooted in a beach. I want to try something new like travelling alone, bungee jumping, wants to try out kickboxing, learn billiards, loves to watch basketball and volleyball.



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hi friends... thanks for visiting my visting my world, this are my daily thoughts, my opinions, views, the experiences, the mood swings and the tantrums. Life has its ups and downs, i've been to the worst could i say i survive? nah.. not yet but I WILL, as long as their is LIFE i want to see its beauty and Life is too short to linger in the past and spend on regretting when there are alot of things you could do to make life worthwhile. I am still in the midst of finding my worth. It's a long journey out there and i intend to find out my purpose for everthing has its reasons. I CHOOSE to be happy and i hope i will be.







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This is God Speaking




Today I will be handling all of your problems. Please remember that I do not need your help. If life happens to deliver a situation to you that you cannot handle, do not attempt to resolve it. Kindly put it in the SFGTD (something for God to do) box.

It will be addressed in My time, not yours. Once the matter is placed into the box, do not hold on to it. If you find yourself stuck in traffic; Don't despair. There are people in this world for whom driving is an unheard of privilege.

Should you have a bad day at work; Think of the man who has been out of work for years. Should you despair over a relationship gone bad; Think of the person who has never known what it's like to love and be loved in return.
Should you grieve the passing of another weekend; Think of the woman in dire straits, working twelve hours a day, seven days a week to feed her children. Should your car break down, leaving you miles away from assistance; Think of the paraplegic who would love the opportunity to take that walk.
Should you notice a new gray hair in the mirror; Think of the cancer patient in chemo who wishes she had hair to examine. Should you find yourself at a loss and pondering what is life all about, asking what is my purpose? Be thankful. There are those who didn't live long enough to get the opportunity.

Should you find yourself the victim of other people's bitterness, ignorance, smallness or insecurities; Remember, things could be worse. You could be them!!!!




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Beautiful Girls
Jojo

I'm way too cool for ya boy
that's why it'll never work
I'll have you suicidal, suicidal
when I say its over
damn all these beautiful girls
were only gunna do ya dirt
we'll have you suicidal, suicidal
when I say its over

I remember when I was hangin with my friends
that's when I caught your eye
you thought that I was fly
right then you wished that I would be your baby
(be your baby)

You tried to spit some game
askin me girl what's your name
saw that ice up on your chain
so I asked you the same
something tells me that we'd have fun together
(fun together)

I aint easy to find
I am one of a kind
Oh when I dirty wine
I know your only mine
Tonight is yours, but tomorrows for another guy
(another guy)

I'm way too cool for ya boy
that's why it'll never work
I'll have you suicidal, suicidal
when I say its over
damn all these beautiful girls
were only gunna do ya dirt
we'll have you suicidal, suicidal
when I say its over

You've been callin me
leavin messages all week
cause your curiosity got your knees weak
I'm not lookin for a man so I don't want no confusion
(no confusion)

I took you to the floor
had you begin me for more
that was my cue to go
so I hit the door
I left you hot wit your mind just runnin wild
(runnin wild)

I ain't easy to find
I am one of a kind
Oh when I dirty wine
I know your only mine
If you stick around be careful not to fall in love
(fall in love)

I'm way too cool for ya boy
that's why it'll never work
I'll have you suicidal, suicidal
when I say its over
damn all these beautiful girls
were only gunna do ya dirt
we'll have you suicidal, suicidal
when I say its over

Now a couple months have past
Never thought that this would last
Oh everybody asked how you got a girl like that
But you should've known that nothing lasts forever
(lasts forever)

And I mush up you mind when I tell you lies
But boy don't be surprised that I'm seein other guys
I'm too young to settle and you should've known better
(known better)
Damn all these beautiful girls
were only gunna do ya dirt
we'll have you suicidal, suicidal
when I say its over














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Monday, December 03, 2007
Missin' my crib

 It's been oh-so-long-since the last entry, no good-byes, no- laterz! it was just "poof" and i was gone in the bloggin' world.    For a time bloggin' gave me a sense of space, a place where I could write my own story, a crib where i exhaust months of making an oh-so-creative-page. This crib has been a witness to my ups and downs, here, i was able to express the different emotions, happiness, sadness, frustrations, depressions, joy, the laughter, the fun and not to mention the daily reflections that touched me. And then suddenly i just stopped. Why?  One word. Denial. I stopped acknowledging the feelings, it was too much to bear.  It was so hard to accept, that even i a psychology major the-miss-know-it-all when it comes to psychoanalyzing the root-cause-of-one's-feelings. My mind just wanted to stop exploring my deeper emotions, i figured if i write i will have to dig those emotions and let it out and i wasn't ready, i was afraid of what i will discover... the weakness in me has taken over and i just want to bury those six-feet-under. What has happened the past year and a half was a whirlwind. I've moved out and moved back  home. Thought had found  "him" but lost him from some biatch! A happy job but traded it to a more complicated one. A perfect working place over  people who tries hard to put you down. A series of ill-feeling with my mom, even my sister at one point. I had the worst relationship with our creator and suffice to say I stopped reaching out bec i was so ashamed of what i have done. It feels like the world is closing out on me and i can't even trust ME, i was empty handed. I realized that amidst all the turmoil and confusion there is this teeny-bit-ray-of-light that has helped me carry the heavy cross in my back. Enough is Enough. I still had a cross to bear but I am no longer hiding, i no longer want to be a captive and a prisoner of my fear and weakness, pride and doubt, anger and depression. It will be a long shot but i have always believed in this mantra " there is no big or small problem, it is about how you cope and handle it that makes a better person".  So hear i am again after the silence i want to hear some noise and i just want to say "i'm back". I'm happy  to be back in my crib, i must admit it needs be overhauled and not to mention a major reconstruction.  My crib needs a lot of pimping and i definitely envy the cribs of the other bloggers. hahah! Thanks for all those who left comments in my blogs in my absence. I missed you all! =)

Posted at Monday, December 03, 2007 by apple_jane
Soul Searching  

Tuesday, December 13, 2005
What took me so long?

Whew! It’s been a long time since, I’ve written in my space or what I call my blog. There were just so many things that happened this past month. I don’t even know where to start… Let me see…

 

~ Last October, I finally went to Bohol with my friend… too bad my friend hadn’t sent me the pictures yet. It’s a great place… I finally saw the tarsier with the help of my three tour guides Michelle, Ivy and Sir (who treated us and who became our driver for the day). Thanks to you guys for making my stay in Bohol worth it. At least that part of the trip was not wasted.

 

~ Finally, we had our 2nd year anniversary for Project Pink… that kept me busy as well, I had to organize the anniversary for our batch the one who started it all—the Alpha Batch. So, we went to Portofino… I hate it we had a lot of pictures but the site is currently down where we stored all the pictures and I pray to God that it will come up eventually... we don’t want to miss those pictures cause it was just F-U-N. I can’t believe it we started out with 15 agents and only 1 resigned after two years… we’re still intact, talk about fighting spirit. Are we cheering for another year? I really don’t know… but looking’ back it’s been one heck of a ride, it’s been enjoyable these people have been my friends for two years. Cheers to the years of friendship and hard work! Since, we don’t have the picture from our recent adventure, below is a picture of us two years ago. Heheheh… it would have been better if we had the other picture so, you can spot the difference.

 

 
The Alpha Batch two years ago =)
 

~ November came and I was so super busy with the masquerade ball that we had for Project Pink, now this one is for the whole account. Whew! It was a crazy month for me, we had to do a lot of preparations, and it was a very formal affair. I had to buy a dress, since I’ve never had a dress… not since I was in high school and this is exactly the reason why I ditched the prom from High school to college… and now that I’m workin’ I’m ask to dress? I almost wanted to shout WHAT? Oh, well in the end it was fun… you see your officemates in a different light not just wearing jeans and shirts. It was pretty fun, but I was so damn tired. Hehehe.. But it was worth it! Here are some pictures taken at City Sports Club.

 

This is me.. not such a good pose... this is before the  party started!

 
This are my girlfriends joanne, sashi, mwahh and ivy.

 
The team Aki! Lerio, love, me, mommy, ivy, rodel and Ron
 
 
This are the organizers... can you spot me?

 
This right after the Gala night Michelle( my new textmate),
Ivy, Sashi, Me(wearing sashi's clothes) and Joanne.
 

This has got to be continued… because there are so many important things that happened in my life this past month.

 

Thanks for all my blogger friends who continued to visit my blog…. You guys rock!

 


Posted at Tuesday, December 13, 2005 by apple_jane
Melancholy  

Monday, November 07, 2005
Favorite Movie Lines

Just want to share some of the most unforgettable movie lines.

Moulin Rouge

The greatest thing you'll ever learn is just to love and be loved in return. (this is my favorite movie as in!)

The Notebook

Noah Calhoun: Summer romances end for all kinds of reasons, but when all is said and done, they have one thing in common. They're shooting stars, a spectacular moment of light in the heavens, fleeting glimpse of eternity, and in a flash they're gone

I am nothing special; of this I am sure. I am a common man with common thoughts, and I've led a common life. There are no monuments dedicated to me and my name will so be forgotten, but I've loved another with all my heart and soul, and to me, this has always been enough.

You tell me when I'm being an arrogant son of a ****, and I tell you when you're a pain in the ass, which you are, 99% of the time. I'm not afraid to hurt your feelings. You have like a two second recovery rate, and then you're on to doing the next pain in the ass thing. So it's not going to be easy; it's going to be really hard. We're going to have to work at this everyday, but I want to do that. Because I want you. I want all of you, forever, you and me, everyday.

The first time you fall in love, it changes your life forever, & no matter how hard you try, the feelin’ never goes away..

The best love is the kind that awakens the soul and makes us reach for more, that plants a fire in our hearts and brings peace to our minds, and that's what you've given me. That's what I hope to give to you forever. I love you. I'll be seeing you

Beautiful mind

"It's only in the mysterious equations of love that any logic or reason can be found."
What truly is logic, who decides reason? My quest has taken me through the physical, the metaphysical, the delusional, and back. And I have made the most important discovery of my career, the most important discovery of my life. It is only in the mysterious equations of love that any logical reasons can be found. I am only here tonight because of you. You are all I am. You are all my reasons

Perhaps it is good to have a beautiful mind, but an even greater gift is to discover a beautiful heart.

Dead Poet’s Society
 

We don't read and write poetry because it's cute. We read and write poetry because we are members of the human race. And the human race is filled with passion. And medicine, law, business, engineering - these are noble pursuits and necessary to sustain life. But poetry, beauty, romance, love - these are what we stay alive for.
 

 

Posted at Monday, November 07, 2005 by apple_jane
Melancholy  

Monday, October 31, 2005
Memoirs of a Geisha


“Whatever our struggles and triumphs, however, we may suffer them; all too soon they bleed into a wash, just like watery ink on paper.”
 

Nitta Sayuri

~Memoirs of Geisha 

Well, this book is on top of my list. I like the way Arthur Golden made the plot of the story, the way he used terms that is comprehensible for a person who has never set foot on Japan or never ever heard of what a kimono or a geisha is, the use of the first person to narrate the story is totally a plus, because it takes you to the persons mind and it feels like you are there to witness all that is happening in narrator’s life. Most of all, I love the twist in the end. Whew, I did not see it coming; it totally has taken me aback and had to read that whole chapter over again.  

So, what is a geisha then? Webster describes it as:  

Japanese from gei art + - sha person


: a Japanese girl or woman who is trained to provide entertaining and lighthearted company especially for a man or a group of men.
 

In the modern times, when people hear the term geisha it is always attached to prostitution. I myself had the same distorted notion but reading the pages of this book has made me realize that it is indeed an art way back 1920’s and 1930’s. This story goes back way before Geisha is appreciated as an art, where these girls are molded to learn the art of dancing like “shamisen”, singing, playing some instruments. In fact, It surprises me that as young as three years old some are already sent to the school of geisha to learn this art. Rigorous arts of the geisha: dance and music, wearing kimono, elaborate makeup and hair pouring sake to reveal just a touch of inner wrist. Most of all the competition with a jealous rival; for men’s solicitude and the money that goes with it. This novel, makes us enter a world where appearances are a paramount, where’ a girls virginity is auctioned to the highest bidder called “mizuage”; where women are trained to lure the most powerful men, and where love is called an illusion. The story is a creative work of fiction but with factual basis on geisha’s training levels, being a novice, apprentice and becoming a full pledge geisha, to having a “danna” to support the geisha’s financial needs. Sayuri’s character evolves from being a fisherman’s daughter full of naivety, hopes and dreams to becoming a determined and willful woman to become a geisha and even a headstrong geisha to rebel from what is being laid down upon her as her destiny. In spite of being a celebrated geisha, she remains hopeful that her one true love would recognize her or just so look at her direction when they meet, she has never given up of her dream to be with him, silently loving him for 15 years. All along, the feeling is mutual but it took them fifteen years when the time was right, when no friendships will be broken. It’s that magical moment that they have expressed their secret love for one another, the way they have look at each other in their owns special way. Goodness! Call me a romanticist but I like the twist, it was unpredictable who would have thought... that love indeed movies in mysterious ways I also like the cultures depicted into book, it makes you appreciate the richness of the Japanese cultures and traditions. 

Two Thumps up for this book. . Mind you it was not the love story that enticed me into reading this book, it was the fact that it will be a movie soon; Sayuri will be portrayed by Zhang Zi yi and Mameha by Michelle Yeoh, it will be interesting to see the production of this film. It will be interesting on how the director would portray the character of Nobu and Hatsumomo, well, I’ll leave that to the directors but I’m excited to watch this film. I just saw the trailer of this film and from the looks of it's fantastic.. now i want to have a copy of the book, too bad i couldn't find any in the bookstores.


Posted at Monday, October 31, 2005 by apple_jane
Melancholy  

Wednesday, October 19, 2005
Simple things....

Another way of spending Saturday night, is to be with your friends in a nice resort. That's exactly what my friends and I did last Saturday. Out of the blue, we planned to have an overnight at this beautiful resort and to my surprise everyone cooperated and everyone that I invited was present. Just to give you a bit of history my friends are not so much into gimmicks so when you plan something it has to be well laid out and not a rush-rush thing, so we were really happy when everyone we expected were there.  Although, the ride towards the place is tedious and so tiring not to mention I was their tour guide when the fact is the last time I visited the place was on my freshmen year in college but we managed to pull it off. All the sweats and the hassle we're soon forgotten when we arrived at the place... its pure bliss. The pool was great, the crowd was ecstatic and to top it all there was a disco bar where people can dance in their swim wears, there were two huge pools too were everyone can enjoy. Too bad we came in too late and the other pool was already closed. Oh and did I mention there was a karaoke as well. I got to meet a lot of friends as well, not only my usual company but the friends of my friends which is also fun. Let me mention their names, Hedge- a medical student and a friend of sashi, Michelle, met her twice first in the MYMP concert, she is working in Bohol and a friend of Ivy. Fad's, the jolly friend of Maui whom we thought was a drinker, little did we realize that just by a one glass of drink she passed out and had spots all over her face. It was not a funny sight, but it was nonetheless entertaining.. And she was better off not drinking because she sleeps but when she's awake she cracks the funniest jokes and the silliest expressions.  I brought along my sister as well, who for the first time in her life really did not sleep... I mean not a 10 minute nap during the entire evening did she sleep, that was quite an achievement for her too.

 

One thing I realized from this experience is you don’t have to spend so much to enjoy quality time with your friends. Sometimes, it’s good to be impulsive because the excitement, the adrenalin rush and the sense of adventure is high. Sometimes, when things are well planned somewhere in between something always comes up that makes the others back-out or others suddenly have and unexpected emergency or whatever excuse. When planning is done in a rush, there is little time to think and most likely everyone is almost excited to experience new things.

 

Just some points to ponder:… it’s the simple things in life we forget, sometimes we make simple things so complicated… especially when we worry so much about the future.


Posted at Wednesday, October 19, 2005 by apple_jane
Melancholy  

Friday, October 14, 2005
Inspired by Paolo Coelho

One always has to know when a stage comes to an end.

If we insist on staying longer than the necessary time, we lose the happiness and the meaning of the other stages we have to go through. Closing cycles, shutting doors, ending chapters - whatever name we give it, what matters is to leave in the past the moments of life that have finished.

Did you lose your job? Has a loving relationship come to an end? Did you leave your parents' house? Gone to live abroad? Has a long-lasting friendship ended all of a sudden?

You can spend a long time wondering why this has happened. You can tell yourself you won't take another step until you find out why certain things that were so important and so solid in your life have turned into dust, just like that.

But such an attitude will be awfully stressing for everyone involved: your parents, your husband or wife, your friends, your children, your sister, everyone will be finishing chapters, turning over new leaves, getting on with life, and they will all feel bad seeing you at a standstill.

None of us can be in the present and the past at the same time, not even when we try to understand the things that happen to us. What has passed will not return: we cannot for ever be children, late adolescents, sons that feel guilt or rancor towards our parents, lovers who day and night relive an affair with someone who has gone away and has not the least intention of coming back.

Things pass, and the best we can do is to let them really go away.

That is why it is so important (however painful it may be!) to destroy souvenirs, move, give lots of things away to orphanages, sell or donate the books you have at home. Everything in this visible world is a manifestation of the invisible world, of what is going on in our hearts - and getting rid of certain memories also means making some room for other memories to take their place.

Let things go. Release them. Detach yourself from them. Nobody plays this life with marked cards, so sometimes we win and sometimes we lose. Do not expect anything in return, do not expect your efforts to be appreciated, your genius to be discovered, your love to be understood. Stop turning on your emotional television to watch the same program over and over again, the one that shows how much you suffered from a certain loss: that is only poisoning you, nothing else.

Nothing is more dangerous than not accepting love relationships that are broken off, work that is promised but there is no starting date, and decisions that are always put off waiting for the "ideal moment." Before a new chapter is begun, the old one has to be finished: tell yourself that what has passed will never come back. Remember that there was a time when you could live without that thing or that person - nothing is irreplaceable, a habit is not a need. This may sound so obvious, it may even be difficult, but it is very important.

Closing cycles. Not because of pride, incapacity or arrogance, but simply because that no longer fits your life. Shut the door, change the record, clean the house, and shake off the dust.

Stop being who you were, and change into who you are.


Posted at Friday, October 14, 2005 by apple_jane
Melancholy  

Monday, October 10, 2005
Random thoughts

"Life isn’t about keeping score. It’s not about how many people call you and its not about who you’ve dated at all. It isn’t about who you’ve kissed, what sport you play, or which guy or girl likes you. It’s not about your shoes or your hair or the color of your skin or where you live or go to school. In fact, it’s not about grades, money, clothes, or colleges that accept you or not. Life isn’t about if you have a lot of friends, or if you are alone, and its not about how accepted or unaccepted you are. Life isn’t just about that.

But life is about who you love and who you hurt. It’s about how you feel about yourself. Its about trust, happiness and compassion. It’s about sticking up for your friends and replacing inner hate with love. Life is about avoiding jealousy, overcoming ignorance and building confidence. It’s about seeing people for who they are and not what they have. Most of all, its about choosing to use your life to touch someone else’s in a way that could never have been achieved otherwise. These choices are what life’s about."


Yes, that is what's life about, choosing to use your life to touch someone else's life. Questions have been thrown at me, why i changed my course after 2 years of being a computer science student to take up psychology, which by popular misconception of the OLD people is only for mentally ill people. *** shux*** I always say that i'd rather understand the concept of people cause it has always been my passion to understand how the mind works, making programs does not make sense to me at all no feelings involved. It has always left me open-mouthed how my teacher's were able to touch the lives of people may it be through analysis or any process at all. It may sound to dramatic, but yes i do want to touch a person's life, and in my little way i have and it always gives me this feeling of
worthiness.

Posted at Monday, October 10, 2005 by apple_jane
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